Indescribable Lore

[Fate]

Indescribable Lore
The writings and documentations of Zexion, the Shadow-Walking Tactician.

The Lexicon’s Opening Words [Audition]

Zexion, the Cloaked Schemer [Profile Page]
Author’s Biography.

Other Important Documents Contained in the Lexicon:

• The Reports of Ansem, the Seeker of Darkness
  
• The Reports of Ansem the Wise

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Chapter One: Friends and Foe Alike

June 1, 2010, Twilight Town:
When I happened about Twilight Town, I was greeted with a Heartless ship and the ship of another. They seemed to be travelers, though I found the Heartless ship more unusual. The Heartless are growing weak and number and I believe they will continue to do so until something is done. I doubt the balance will rectify itself.

The Heartless seemed intent on stealing the hearts of the travelers and managed to steal two of them. The last one remaining was seemingly gifted with a particularly strong heart. It would be in my greatest interest to keep myself surrounded by those strong of heart; I doubt the Organization's new formation will not last long. The Superior does not seem entirely interested in interfering with the balance of dark and light.

After saving the life of the last traveler, Raen, I managed to have a discussion with him about this very balance. He seemed unsure of which side to fight for. I gave him what I knew about the balance, which he accepted. He also did not seem keen on me nor as thankful when he found out what I truly was; not surprising of course. I do not doubt we will meet again, though it will truly be intriguing to see which side he chooses.
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July 5, 2010, Base:
I was not expecting Emi to follow me into the World that Never Was. It was a dangerous move on her part, for I intend to keep her here now. I suppose she could be used later as a tool of sorts. I would need to plan further to ensure this. She would be reluctant to do anything I say. I am able to hold a minimal amount of power over her, however. I managed to create a successful illusion of her mother, even though I did not know what the woman originally looked like. This gave me some hold over Emi, but unfortunately something went awry. The illusion I created changed into my own memories. It was the same memory of talking to Ansem the Wise that led to the downfall of Radiant Garden and the typical blame put on myself. I did start a lot of this mess, didn't I? Now I need to restore balance for the sake of the worlds.

Emi was brought back to my quarters for temporary holding. She could later be brought to the prison cells, though plans needed to be made before anything could happen. I believe it was a bit irrational for me to do this, but I think another element is in play here. We both have memories that need unlocking. There has to be a reason that I do not remember her. It took a fair amount of work and my power to find the cause of it all. It seems Ienzo pushed Emi out of his memories after she had had a raging fit on him. He did not want to remember, so he repressed and lied in order to maintain some level of comfort. It was truly fascinating. I could almost feel his fear and sense of betrayal. I am also feeling the remnant of something else, though I cannot name what it is. Emi can no longer be a tool, similar to how Arc cannot be. She could be considered a 'friend' I suppose, though for now I will consider her an ally.

I will bring her back to Radiant Garden with me. It would be useful of me to see how the Radiant Garden Restoration Committee is progressing. Though, I fear that our newest return, Vexen, might suspect me. It was sudden of me to leave without any warning. I can only hope that this will not hinder further plans.
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June 5-6, 2010, Radiant Garden:
Emi was brought safely back to Radiant Garden during the evening, the both of us staying overnight at an inn. I was a bit surprised the innkeeper did not recognize me at all, though I suppose that is a good thing. I cannot help but be on high alert in this world, not after it fell. It was dangerous for me to come here because of that, neglecting Vexen's suspicion of me. He undoubtedly knows I'm up to something and will eventually find out.

The next day proved to be rather intriguing, though I believe moreso for Emi than myself. She found friends that had lived at the orphanage, none of which I knew myself. I cannot help but to wonder why I am still following her, why I am still here in Radiant Garden when I could have simply let her go through a Corridor of Darkness and never return. I still cannot answer this question and most likely will not be able to for some time.

Vexen indeed found me as well as Luxord. He saw through my lies and remained highly suspicious of me. Suspicion, at least at this current stage, would not be helpful to me. He needed to know what was going on; I could trust Vexen in the past with information. Though, this information he will be suspicious of hearing as well. It is time I leave Emi behind for the time being and clear my name of suspicion, if it is still possible.
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June 6, 2010, Base:
This is a dangerous conversation to be having to Vexen, a very dangerous one indeed. However, I need to place temporary trust in at least one Nobody in the Organization and he has proven himself to be fairly trustworthy. Though, I do not predict he will like what I have to say nor will I think the conversation will go well. He is already suspicious of me; if this conversation does not enhance it, I will be surprised.

I cannot help but think that the Organization is in worse condition than when we began. Xigbar had previously warned me about Superior being on a separate track than the rest of us and that was before the events of Castle Oblivion. I should have known then to be suspicious of the Superior; alas, my loyalty made me blind. I still have that same loyalty, though I do not if it will remain; Vexen's most likely will, however.

No one is sure exactly what happened after twelve members of the Organization fell, leaving only Superior behind. The only thing that is certain is that Kingdom Hearts is no longer in the sky and we are still empty vessels. I am inclined to believe that Xemnas, like his Heartless and Other, went after the power Kingdom Hearts offered. The thoughts make me uneasy and lead to more questions than answers, all coming down to one: does the Superior want his heart back?

That does not have an answer just yet. Nonetheless, I have to be sure that he indeed went for power and not the goal of the Organization. Plans will have to be made to go about this in the most careful way possible. Vexen mentioned the idea of confronting the keyblade master himself about it, though I doubt that would go well; he does not hold the Organization in a favorable view. I will have to contemplate this further and see if I can use the fact that Sora has never met me to my advantage.

For now, there is not much else I can do except continue to trust in the Superior and observe from afar.
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June 7, 2010, Radiant Garden:
Radiant Garden will never cease to draw me back into its clutches, will it? It has only been a day since I last visited it and Emi is still here; her scent is strong, though I found it lingering amongst the darkness in the castle. Maleficent's stench was there once more, a fact that would need to make its way back to Superior as soon as possible; the sorceress was a nuisance that needed to be handled properly.

I managed to find her in the castle, though I suspected she was less than pleased to see me. Nonetheless, she let me help her teach her how to control the darkness enough to use the Corridors of Darkness. She had far more darkness than I originally thought she did and she trusted me enough to lay it out in front of me. I found it peculiar that she did; after all, she has no reason to trust one such as myself.

This still begs the question of why we keep meeting, why things keep happening. I am not a firm believer in fate and destinies, though this is beginning to remind me of those theories. Somehow, we are connected. It will be more difficult for her I imagine; I could care less what happens to it so long as it does not end in my death. Either way, I suppose I will have to wait and see what happens.
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June 13, 2010, Halloween Town:
The mission was completed successfully without too much to report. Halloween Town proved to be suffering from a lack of Heartless activity, leading Xigbar and I to investigate. We managed to find the source of the problem and take care of it quickly, though I must say that being swallowed by a Heartless is not a particularly enjoyable experience; it was rather repulsing.

The only thing more repulsing, or at least scarring in this case one could say, was after the mission. I do not want to know where or when Xigbar learned to do that, nor do I want to learn what possessed him to do so. I am now scarred with this atrocious image of his... "victory dance"... in my mind and I never want to see it again. I have made a request to Superior that I not be placed on any further missions with Xigbar and stated my reasons; hopefully it is acquiesced and I do not have to witness that again.
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June 14, 2010, Radiant Garden:
I managed to extract interesting tidbits of information from a friend of Emi's while here; why Demyx could not get this information is beyond me. However, it seems that the mysterious figure is not Maleficent and we now have some details as to what he looks like: red hair with a silver robe is at least something to go off of. He does not sound like anyone that I, or anyone from the Organization, have previously encountered. We are dealing with a new enemy, a "tool of darkness" as he calls himself.

The damage of Radiant Garden also seemed extensive, telling me we are dealing with someone more powerful than the likes of Maleficent. We will have to tread carefully and keep out a watch for him; though, it is unknown where he will strike again. It is possible that he will strike Radiant Garden again, though he did not destroy it when he had the opportunity; I believe he will strike in a different place next.

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Head hurts too much to continue-- Radiant Garden inhabitants have violent tendencies...
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June 15, 2010, Wonderland:
Luxord summoned me to aid him in his mission in Wonderland. Though, it seems I am not the only one he asked as I originally thought; Vexen and Nyxar joined as well. Number Four seems to think that I had something to do with it, as always. I wonder if he pretends to be daft on purpose.

We traversed through the rather odd world, having to shrink in size to get through. The world was throwing off my senses the entire time, particularly when we went our separate ways. I managed to find a throne as well, though it was much too large for me; the monarch here seems to be rather robust. Either way, we all found ourselves in a forest of sorts and met with an odd character; it was rather nonsensical.

We then met a few more nonsensical characters in a garden of sorts, keen on us staying and being 'guests'. The others seemed to be all right with ignoring the mission in favor of this, though I refused as best as I could. Luxord seemed keen on having me stay, though I suppose it was understandable after we learned the information about the Heartless we were supposed to be tracking. By some sort of oddity, we managed to get back to the room with the table and the Heartless appeared. Luxord, Nyxar and I promptly defeated it; I will have to write the report and include that Vexen was not performing as he should.
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June 16, 2010, Base:
The meeting proved to be only slightly interesting as the Superior called the entire Organization together. The only ones not present were the traitors and Saïx, though I am almost considering him a traitor as well. The main objective of the meeting was discussed, which concerned the recent attack on Radiant Garden. I was able to give as much information as I knew, the information immediately expounded on by the other members. What I found more interesting than their words was that Lexaeus had returned as well; it meant that someone in the Organization that I trusted more had returned. I will need to discuss things with him soon and let him know what has been going on.

The other interesting tidbit from the meeting was what the Superior decided to do afterward. He assigned the task of tracking down and negotiating with this new dark force to me; while I have confidence in my tracking and negotiating skills, it felt a bit rushed. We do not have enough information on this man to be able to determine anything, though we know he is extremely powerful; should I fail, I will be exterminated. However, I will not disappoint the Superior; I must do all I can to remain in his good graces like the loyal subject that I am... at least for now. I still have my suspicions.
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Chapter Two: Manipulation of Data

June 17, 2010, Radiant Garden:
I returned to Radiant Garden to see if I could pick up any further information concerning the Tool of Darkness or Maleficent's pawns, the latter of which piquing my interest. I instead found Sephiroth, who bore the same scent as the three pawns, though he seemed more powerful. It was rather intriguing and worth noting, though the meeting was rather tiresome. He seemed keen on testing two fighters that were in the Marketplace with Heartless.

He also said he wished to meet me again. I intend to do so, but I cannot help but be suspicious. This man is indeed incredibly powerful. He, like most others I meet, most likely wants information. I will not be willing to provide any without any sort of payment; he undoubtedly has information I could use.
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June 19, 2010, Traverse Town:
With the assigned task from the Superior in mind, I traveled to Traverse Town to see if I could find any useful information about the mysterious dark force. It does not seem like I can since no one new seems to be in Traverse Town nor do I hear any rumors flying around; if he truly was causing havoc, one would be able to pick up on it by being in a place such as this.

However, while finding information on the dark force proved to be futile, I did manage to find other incredibly useful information. Axel was in Traverse Town as well, making things much more interesting; I was a bit surprised to see him, not thinking that he would travel to this world in particular. Though, I used this opportunity and disguised myself as Roxas, managing to fool him for a bit before I made an obvious blunder. Fortunately, this blunder did not persuade him to kill me; rather, it fortified his, and my own, curiosity.

From Axel, I was able to extract his reasons and the circumstances surrounding my death, finding out that my suspicions were indeed true; Saïx was involved, though more than I thought. He exploited the previous friendship he had with Axel to gain power, knowing that if he got rid of me, he would obtain a closer position to the Superior. His motivation was what interested me more though; he wanted to overthrow the Organization due to the Superior's veiled intentions. According to Axel, the Superior was just after the power of Kingdom Hearts, not his heart. This went along with my current suspicions concerning the Superior, though I would be a fool to call them as fact without further proof.

To gain further proof, I struck a deal with Axel to obtain the information that I was originally going to look for myself. I sent him on a mission to Destiny Islands to question the Keyblade Masters about their final stand with Xemnas and obtain all of the data that he can. While I said that this information would be crucial for the Organization, he most likely knows that it would be more useful to myself. Once he has gotten the information that I need, I will uphold my end of the bargain: we are going to bring Roxas back.

This should proof to be very interesting.
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June 21, 2010, Radiant Garden:
This was a rather short meeting. I entered Radiant Garden with an immense amount of luck. Sora was indeed here as I suspected he would be, making my plan a bit easier. I passed along an anonymous note to him, telling him to meet someone at Castle Oblivion on the second day of July. By that time, everything should be set into place and ready for Axel and I to make our move.

It was rather intriguing to see King Mickey present with Sora as well. He aided Sora's suspicion, though I do not think that the Keyblade Master will dismiss the note that I gave him. I do wonder if King Mickey recognized me; I will have to meet with him as well to see. Perhaps he could give me information on Xemnas as well; after all, it is not in his nature to lie.
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June 26, 2010, Neverland:
It seems that almost everywhere I happen upon, there is no information about the Tool of Darkness that attacked Radiant Garden. I feel as though I am either on a cold trail or perhaps this attack was only one occurrence and will not happen again; I doubt the latter and continue my search. The residents of Neverland, almost needless to say, were not able to give me any information whatsoever, though that might have had to do with my disguise. I will make sure never to use it again.

As I was about to part for The World That Never Was, I detected three scents not of this world. I recognized the first as Raen's but not the others; it seems he has been traveling with new companions and he has changed since I saw him three weeks ago. The darkness has grown stronger in his heart and is threatening to control it; if he is not careful, it could very well consume him and leave only an empty shell in his place.

I found it rather intriguing that Raen compared himself to me during this short encounter. I am a bit curious as to why he would, though I suppose there are likenesses. When I happened on him in Twilight Town, intending to see if he could be a possible tool of sorts, he seemed rather curious much like myself; this was particularly prevalent when he questioned me about the current imbalance. As I studied him again, there were even more similarities. His tone of voice was similar, as was his choice to choose the darkness. It was not surprising to see since his heart was already battling with that very entity, though his friends did not seem to like it much at all.

In fact, none of them seemed to like the words that I told them. The three of them attempted to do combat with me, though their failure was imminent. Even while being outnumbered, I managed to defeat them. This further proved my point then: Raen may think that he can control the darkness and master it, but I do not find this to be true. He is weak at this point; his darkness is no different from anyone else's and it has already started to control him during the fight. His friends seemed willing to not allow his heart to be corrupted, a touching sentiment I suppose if one could feel. I left them with parting words about the Tool of Darkness as a warning.

I suppose that I could have responded differently other than leaving the scene; finishing them completely was certainly possible at that point, though I chose not to end them. Was it mercy? No. I have always stood by the principle of keeping my hands clean. Killing them would have done nothing for myself or the Organization, and disposing of me would have done nothing for them. Should I have stopped the battle when it started? Perhaps, though the combat hopefully made a point to Raen; if he cannot even defeat me, then how does he expect to control the darkness? I cannot answer that question, though I believe another meeting is inevitable.
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July 1, 2010, Disney Castle:
After catching a glimpse of the King in Radiant Garden, I decided to pay him a visit in his castle. I would have thought that this was impossible, but it seems that the Cornerstone of Light has been disabled. I was able to enter the castle without any sort of mishap. Mickey was not particularly pleased to see me, though I suppose one would not be if one was to find another sitting on one's throne. He is also against the Organization, making this visit a bit dangerous; not only could the King possibly kill me, but suspicion could arouse if anyone knew what I wanted out of this visit.

However, I was not the only one who wanted to visit Mickey. A sentient Heartless, a rather tall one to say the least, appeared as well. It was interesting to see the King's reaction to two intruders in his castle, though he lowered his weapon at long last as the three of us discussed the balance, particularly concerning the Tool of Darkness. No new information was given, our discussion mainly focusing on what to do with the information we had. There is not that much any of us can do at this point since the Tool of Darkness has only attacked once; we are not sure if it will happen again. I found it intriguing that there was one of light, one of darkness, and one of neither in this meeting.

The three of us will be meeting in three week's time in Traverse Town to discuss any new findings. I also managed to procure some other information out of Mickey. His words went in line with my current suspicions concerning Xemnas; he went for Kingdom Hearts to defeat the Keyblade Masters. I will have to match this information with what Axel will give me, but I do not think the King would have any reason to lie; this makes matters all the more difficult. I must now decide what to do with this information.
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July 1, 2010, Second Entry, Traverse Town:
After meeting with the King, I returned to Traverse Town to see if I could possibly find Axel. I managed to find him, though he was naturally quite impatient with me. There were also others in the midst, a man that resembled a pirate and a powerful man of darkness; however, it was not the one I was looking for. I ignored him and the pirate man; Axel had information to give me and I had to see if it lined up with what the King said.

... It did. Riku had confirmed that Xemnas used Kingdom Hearts for his own gain. I am not sure what I will do with this information, but I will have to watch carefully inside the Organization. I cannot act upon it at the moment; I can only wait patiently as my other plans unfold. I will be meeting Axel and Sora at Castle Oblivion tomorrow; if all goes accordingly, we will have a Keyblade Master on our side once more.
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July 2, 2010, Castle Oblivion:
In the beginning, everything went according to plan. Axel and Sora arrived just as I planned, the former coming before me. I chose to put my powers at Axel's disposal for this particular plan. I had originally intended to exploit Sora by myself, but this would have been an unwise move. Axel has something I do not with Sora: established trust. He can use that to bring Sora out, thereby allowing me to work behind the scenes.

Axel established that the castle they were in conveyed what was in one's heart, also saying that it was intended to be used by the Organization and they needed to make sure that that did not happen. This allowed me not only to make Sora think twice about him and Axel being the only ones in the room, but it allowed me to toy with the idea of Marluxia, Kairi, and even Roxas. The use of Marluxia, at first, was successful, as was Kairi's. Sora seemed aware that all of what I was doing was an illusion, though he was still affected by it and did not know it was someone else doing this, not Castle Oblivion.

Unfortunately, the illusions started to fray when Sora managed to figure out that I was not the real Roxas; most likely an inner realization, something having to do with being a Keyblade Master or some other nonsense. I fear I grew too ambitious with my next illusion when I changed into the form of Marluxia. I tried to attack Sora to make a point much like I had with Riku. However, Sora was not like Riku: the former attacked first and asked questions later most of the time. Sora attacked back and the illusion was shattered. Any attempts to try and make them work at this point when Sora could see my true form would be pointless.

It was then that Axel became filled with a rather peculiar rage that I had not seen the Nobody do before. After my attempts failed, he seemed to want to kill Sora for holding Roxas within him. Knowing Axel as well as I do, I knew he would not hesitate in this either. I could not let him kill Sora and let needless violence continue; Axel would later realize that he killed Roxas and I am not fond of the idea of letting Axel use me as anything but a business partner. I stepped in and expressed this very notion, allowing Sora to escape through a Corridor of Darkness. I had warned Emiline of the nature of these and what they could do if used enough. It would take a long amount of work for Sora to get to any point of corruption, but this is a mere start. I have to continue with another plan.

I expressed this plan to Axel as well, also telling him to search out for Everto, the Keyblade Master of Darkness. I believe this particular ally of mine will become very useful if we look to corrupt Sora with darkness. I told Axel to refer to himself as my ally to Everto, a dangerous move I realize. If anyone were to know that I was letting a known traitor be my ally, there would be dire consequences. Although... no, I will not get into the thoughts of the Superior now. I still need to sift through them.
Axel also asked me for "suggestions" on what to do next as this next part of the plan started, one that would take time. This next move was also dangerous, one I would not have normally made; however, times have changed and I have realized that I need to be much more direct in my plans than I was before. I told him to locate Saïx and find his motive; this Nobody will have a difficult time in earning my trust back now that I am aware of what he has done. I also told Axel that if Saïx's motives turn out to be impure, do not hesitate in ridding of the traitor. I realize this move may be hasty and may have consequences, but all good tacticians must be willing to take risks at least once. I cannot trust Saïx in the Organization if I know that his motives are impure and he is willing to stage another coup to gain power. I may not care much for rank, but I am not particularly willing to give up my position as second-in-command just yet.

In the end, my illusions were both a success and a failure. I grew too ambitious with Marluxia and I will not make the same mistake again when working with Sora. Though, there is much I can do with him. Axel now has his orders; perhaps now he will be able to gain my trust back. Doubtful, but we will see.
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Chapter Three: Preparing for the Inevitable

July 4, 2010, Deep Jungle:
I had once said that I had never seen anyone wear the darkness the way that Riku does with such power. It had been impossible to me that anyone could. However, my visit to this jungle world has taught me otherwise. My search is at long last complete for the Tool of Darkness and I have now seen for myself exactly how powerful he is. He wore the darkness different than Riku did... much different.

The darkness this man wore was extremely overwhelming, so much so that I could not approach him; it was almost petrifying to feel so much darkness in one area at one time. It was almost encapsulating the world itself. How could the others present there, including King Mickey, get so close? Could they not realize the man's darkness at all? There were others present at this meeting, Everto included, but they did not concern me as much as this. It was time to extract some much needed information.

The man answered a few questions, telling us that his goal was not balance but of darkness. However, he would not align with the likes of anyone; this meant he could not be used as Maleficent's tool. He mentioned the Doors to Light and Darkness and how one was closed while the other was not. Though, the Doors had nothing to do with his goals.

When I asked who he was, he gave us a paradoxical riddle. I have written it down here for further analysis:

"I am the one who walks through a sword. I have been a ghost, yet never died. I am the pattern easily copied. The earth changes at my command. I am the 'and' in grave matters. I represent the source of shadows. I have been called tool, slave, servant, and champion; I am zero and all four."

The man also asked to be called Champion, though the others seemed skeptical to do so. I myself am wary of doing such a thing. Further analysis of this will be needed and I will bring it to Superior as well. These words are heavy and as I continue to read them again and again, I sense the true meaning is eluding me. Every phrase piques my curiosity even further.

The particular phrase that I was gathering the most out of was that he represents the source of shadows. This most obviously has to do with the Darkness, though he is not the source of it; Xehanort is considered to the source of Shadows, or Heartless at the very least. Does that mean that he is serving someone even more powerful? Are there perhaps more like him? If so, then I believe the worlds are going to experience a change like we have not seen before.
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July 5, 2010, Base:
Xigbar has recruited a new member into the Organization, one that I cannot say either of us are too fond of. When I happened upon him, the new member was in the Superior's Chair. His personality is quite grating, making me wonder if Xigbar obtained him just for that reason alone; he later informed us that the Nobody possessed the ability to replicate other abilities. There is most likely more to this Nobody that I am not aware of, but now is not the time to consider it. I have more important news to give to the Superior.

I gave him what I found on the Champion including the riddle. The Superior was equally perplexed with it, though was able to figure out that the Champion has the ability to become incorporeal. From this riddle, I also have to wonder if the Champion is working alone or if he has others like him. If there are more of him, then the worlds and the rather important Keyblade Bearers are in even greater danger.

Axas and Xigbar seemed to want to eavesdrop on the conversation, though I couldn't say I minded the latter; his eavesdropping skills had proven to be very useful in the past. However, not only was the new member attempting to listen in, but Number Seven picked this time to return as well. He has excellent timing; I wonder if word had gotten around yet that I was going to expose him as a traitor. Either way, I cannot do that now. Things will have to wait.
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July 8, 2010, Dark Meridian:
This particular occurrence was a bit unsettling. I followed Nyxar after he went through a Corridor of Darkness and found myself in The Dark Meridian. My suspicious were even more raised, though I found him meeting with Marluxia. Axel was there as well, though I doubt he had anything to do with the meeting of the other two. I wanted to believe that Nyxar had no connection with Marluxia, but there was no questioning it at this point; they had some sort of alliance.

Axel and I had a much more intriguing conversation while these two stood about. He had apparently met with Number Seven and warned me to stay away from him. He most likely had figured out where that nasty rumor came from and was going to track me down. I will have to make sure he does not find me.

The question stood in this meeting on whether or not I should eliminate the traitors. I could not eliminate Axel because of our partnership, but I also doubt that I could defeat Marluxia. I did not bother fighting him for now, knowing it would be foolish to do so; I will have to later. Marluxia seemingly wanted information, though neither Axel or I were willing to give. We both left, though I don't doubt I will see Marluxia again.
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July 10, 2010, Twilight Town:
Xigbar and I were sent to recruit yet another Nobody into the Organization that had been detected in Twilight Town. After Axas, both of us are hoping for a better Nobody. Alas, it seems that the Nobody disappeared shortly after we arrived; can't say it's too much of a shame. We instead ran into Axel, which wasn't surprising since this was Twilight Town. However, I couldn't say I expected the other visitor, Saïx. He did not stay for long, only coming to find me and punch me in the face before leaving. My face is still throbbing. Why do people keep doing this to me? I'll have to find out sooner or later...

Either way, Xigbar and I continued conversing with Axel, particularly about Saïx and the Superior. I filled Xigbar in about what Axel and I had found out about Xemnas's true intentions. He then asked a crucial question, what we intended to do about it. Admittedly, I did not want anything to do with the idea of disposing him at first. We have had enough of that in the Organization already and I still partially place my loyalties with Xemnas. However, I cannot think of any other ways and was thus easily swayed. I suppose there is a difference between being loyal to Xemnas and being loyal to the Organization; I choose the latter.

Axel seems to be on board with this idea and, for the moment, I will be sending him to take out Xemnas; Xigbar will also be keeping this to himself, undoubtedly. Though, I have my qualms about this. Axel is indeed a powerful Nobody, but would he be powerful enough to take out Superior? I cannot help but feel uneasy sending him alone. I may have to find others to aid him, though how many can I sneak into the Castle undetected? I doubt I can sneak in that many. I may have to pitch in myself... I will continue to think about this more.

As a last note: Be Prepared.
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July 12, 2010, Destiny Islands and Land of Dragons:
After finding out that the Champion had recently been at Destiny Islands, I went to pay it a visit. The world was not harmed at all and looked untouched. It peaks my curiosity now; why would the Champion travel to this world and leave it unscathed? Was he perhaps meeting someone here? I cannot know for certain, nor will I anytime soon I imagine.

Unexpectedly, I found Kairi as well without Sora. She was hostile toward me at first and seemed to expect a kidnapping. Apparently, one of the other Organization members had kidnapped her before, though I can't say I know for certain who would do that or why. I managed to convince her that I was not here to kidnap her and was simply looking for information on the Champion, though I chose to offer to bring her to Sora. It was a spur of the moment plan and not something I would normally do, but I did have a motive. Upon doing this, I could gain Sora's trust. That would make my plan with him to obtain Roxas go by much quicker.

I managed to track Sora down to the Land of Dragons, albeit with slight difficulty; tracking someone throughout a galaxy is not as easy as it appears to be. He was hesitant to trust at first, though he saw my actions in Castle Oblivion as somewhat altruistic after some coercion. I left Kairi with him and that was that.

Of course it wasn't. The thoughts of my previous entry still bother me. Should I get directly involved in the disposal of Xemnas? It is simply not how I do things at all, or at least in the past. But circumstances have drastically changed since before. I watched my plans fall before because I did not act quickly enough, because I let others do the work out of the need to keep my hands clean. However, disposing of Xemnas is entirely different. If Axel does not have aid, then the plan would not succeed and Xemnas would stand strong. We would lose our chance of getting rid of him.

With these thoughts in mind, I sent Axel a Dusk to confirm my committing to being directly involved. I cannot help but feel like this may be a mistake, but I figure that it has to be done. This is for the good of the Organization, not simply a strike for power. Power is not my goal: order is.
Complete

July 13, 2010, Halloween Town:
My visit to Halloween Town was incredibly short, thankfully. Heartless activities were back to normal and the person-eating Heartless was nowhere to be found. That is not an experience I ever want to revisit, thank you.

However, Castle and Emi were here as well as a Nobody, one that had just become a Nobody so to speak. Emi did not hurt me like she usually does seemed to not want to see me and Castle seemed confused. Neither were my main concern though and I spoke to the Nobody straight away. She was the one I had briefly seen in Radiant Garden when I had seen Sephiroth. Her scent was recognizable, even though she had taken on the form of an ice golem.

I spoke to her a bit about joining the Organization, to which she agreed to. She did not want her heart back though, which I found interesting. She had not used it much when she was originally human, so she saw no need to get it back. Though, she would provide power to the Organization, which was something we needed. I left with her and was happy to not get a hammer thrown at me.
Complete

July 14, 2010, Neverland.
Why am I still in Neverland? I came here a couple of hours ago, but I did not intend to stay this long. It seems I fell asleep, but I don't remember how. There is a half-eaten Sea-Salt ice cream stick near me and the taste in my mouth is the same as that. I don't remember eating ice cream... I wasn't aware that Neverland had ice cream to begin with. If I had known that, I would have gotten some a long time ago.

My mind is currently foggy at the moment. I would return to sleeping in an attempt to clear it, but I have to return to the Castle That Never Was. Still, there are things floating around in there. There was something about Lexaeus and Axel, but I can't remember it. There was also something about a flamingo and a turkey... I need sleep.
Complete

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Chapter Four: In Medias Res

July 15, 2010, Keyblade Graveyard
Vexen took me to a rather desolate world for reconnaissance. It is a world I cannot say I've been to, though it has a lot of history. A large battle seemingly took place here a long time ago, one that Vexen will tell me about shortly.

I write this as Vexen explains. He tells me that this world is called the Keyblade Graveyard and for a very good reason: there are thousands of lifeless Keyblades strewn in a large plateau area. All of them seem broken and ancient. Vexen tells me that they were left here after the battle known as the Keyblade War. It was a large battle with Keyblade Masters of both light and dark, all of them in search of Kingdom Hearts. The war raged on in this world until it catastrophically ended. The world then split into others with boundaries, the worlds that we know of today. They were once one world, but no longer are.

This is all incredibly fascinating information. I had never heard of the Keyblade War before. Vexen refuses to tell me his sources, even though I have given him the information that he wanted. I told him that I had met with Mickey and Riku to confirm my suspicions. This did not seem to satisfy him and he wanted more.

Though, the Champion being in this world at the same time was certainly enough for him. He came and left the world quickly, though Vexen and I stumbled upon the Keyblade Graveyard he had been creating in one section. There were exactly fifty-three Keyblades, all of them saying that they had been killed seven days ago. There was a new one to add to the collection as well, though it was incredibly eerie. This information is quite... alarming. The Champion has already started what we have feared. He has started killing Keyblade Masters.

This information will be staying with Vexen and me for the time being. Lexaeus will know as well soon enough. We may have to think of a plan of action soon. Sora does not stand a chance against the Champion.
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July 16, 2010, Beast’s Castle:
Well, this is rather odd. Saïx leaves to do a standard mission and then Axas follows. Number Seven returns, though Axas does not. I went to the world in question to investigate and found no trace of Axas at all, which means that he was dead. I cannot say this bothers me in the slightest. He was a detestable Number Twelve.

Though, I found Axel there as well. He looked like he had just fought in a battle of some sort, which could have been with either Saïx or Axas. I did not bother asking, instead attempting to figure out why I had met with Axel recently. It seems I had made a plan involving Lexaeus without me knowing... no more ice cream for me then.

The plan is to have Axel make himself a threat to the Organization and then have Lexaeus sent to kill him. I would then make it seem as if Axel is dead after Lexaeus gives him enough of a beating. That would then set up Axel to not be expected when the coup begins. He seems to be all right with this plan for now, especially since it involves hurting Vexen. I thought he would appreciate that.

Note: Do not accept ice cream from anyone ever again.
Complete

July 18, 2010, Base:
Axel took the opportunity and went after Vexen in Traverse Town. Interestingly enough, he brought the fight to the World That Never Was, though it was good that he did. He established himself as a threat to the Organization by attacking Saïx, Vexen and me. Lexaeus was able to see this and had no trouble going to obey the order that I gave to him.

Though, when everything comes full circle, will he still have that trust for me? When he finds out that Axel will not really be dead afterward and he knows that I played a part in that, will he even consider trusting me again? His trust is not something I want to lose. I need it if I ever want to run this Organization to its best potential.
Complete

July 18, 2010, Second Entry, Enchanted Dominion
... I will never suggest doing this again. Fire and rocks are quite painful. Though, the deed was completed. Axel "faded" and Lexaeus considered the job done. Luxord also got his fill of entertainment and left. Of course, Axel was not happy with taking all of that damage and I could sense the threat behind his voice when he demanded I deliver him Xemnas. If I don't deliver Xemnas, then Axel will have no problem in carrying out my death.

And I don't want that to happen again. I've had enough fire for now.
Complete

July 18, 2010, Third Entry, Base:
I write this shortly after Lexaeus leaves my quarters, reporting to me that Axel has been killed. I also gave Lexaeus the information that Vexen and I had obtained while in the Graveyard. I asked for his advice on this and he gave me an interesting option, perhaps the only option that we have available. The Organization might just have to stand next to those of light and fight against the Champion himself. Honestly, I cannot find another option other than to watch him continuously slay Keyblade Masters and destroy worlds. The Organization has remained neutral for this long; it needs to act.

Lexaeus wished to tell the Superior about this information of course, which would have been the normal procedure. I told him I was against this, that the Superior should not know yet. I am only prolonging this so the Superior can be gone before there is a chance for him to be told. I can tell Lexaeus is against me, perhaps is even starting to lose his trust in me already. Axel's death makes him question. And once he learns the truth about it, I know I will have lost his trust almost fully. I can only hope to gain it back; he is one of the only ones in this Organization that I completely trust.
Complete

July 19, 2010, Base:
I cannot say I am too pleased to write down everything for this entry, but I know that for the sake of my own memory, I must. Today marks the first initiation that was done in the Organization that the Superior did not control; I did this time. Needless to say, I made it much shorter than Xemnas would have. Our newest member, who I recruited as Furiae, is now named Aixfeur, The Relentless Soldier.

This meeting of sorts was interrupted by the Superior himself, who insisted on testing Aixfeur more. Was my word not good enough? I tested her not only before she became a Nobody, but before Xemnas arrived. She did well with this test, but the Superior felt the urge to make the meeting longer. I had to end it for the sake of everyone there. He had to pick now of all times to come out of incapacitation...

Though, this leaves one thing open. The coup can happen much quicker now since the Superior is no longer incapacitated. I will have to tell Axel this when I have the chance. For now, I will wait for the Superior to see that the Organization is doing well without him, that I am putting in as much order in place as I can. I need to play the loyal, honest member he knows me as for as long as possible.
Complete

July 20, 2010, Disney Castle:
What I write here will be brief, for I am going to be on the move for the rest of this day. When I arrived at Disney Castle, I never found Mickey like I intended to. I spoke with Minnie and she showed me the truth. Mickey had passed, killed by the Champion two days ago. She has asked me to tell Sora. I fully intend to find him as quickly as possible and spread the word further around. The Champion has now made himself more of an immediate threat.
Complete

July 20, 2010, Second Entry, Land of Dragons:
Date: July 20, 2010.
I did not find Sora here, but instead Saïx found me. The two of us briefly discussed the plans for the coup that Saïx had found out through Axel. The two had been planning one of their own, which makes me uneasy but I will not go into detail at the present moment. We have decided to put plans together for the coup and he, Axel and I will work together to defeat Xemnas. The plan is straightforward and perfect.

Almost too perfect.
Complete

July 20, 2010 Third Entry, Deep Jungle, Radiant Garden, and Yen Sid’s Tower:
I first met with Axel to deliver the news about the coup plan and the news about Mickey. He understood both, though I will note something else of interest. Plans for gaining Roxas have changed. I will no longer attempt to get Roxas back for Axel since he no longer requests it. He would not tell me why, but I'm sensing some sort of sentimentalism. Roxas would not be the same as he was before this started. Or something to that equivalent. His "friendships" are of foreign concept to me, as most friendships are. However, there is no need to go down this road of thought.

I next told the Radiant Garden Restoration Committee. Luckily enough, Sora and his friends were already there. I cannot say I like being in the midst of grief like that, though I do not regret taking up the responsibility of being the messenger of death. It is better, and easier, for a Nobody to deliver this news. I left as quickly as possible once Sora heard the message and then went straight to Yen Sid.

Meeting with Yen Sid was... intriguing. He already knew about Mickey's death and had known that I had been traveling quickly around the worlds. He also knew about the Champion's ascension and plan to bring the worlds into darkness, though wondered why I had an invested interest in this. He has been the only one to question why I had been associating with the King; very astute of him.

We discussed the issue of balance, though he proposed no way to fix it; I suppose that will have to be figured out as time passes. I also informed him that Xemnas had no relation to this and the Organization would soon be acting without him. He then said something very interesting to me, something I can't forget: "Be warned that your actions will have consequences that will be most dire." This statement seemed obvious to me at first, though as I continue to dwell on it, I find more meaning. This will not just be dire for the Organization; this will affect things outside of that. Only one option comes to my mind for that.

Xehanort.

I sincerely hope he does not arise. It would only throw things into more chaos and I may never get my order.
Complete

July 21, 2010, Dwarf Woodlands and Base:
While giving Saïx the information I had given yesterday, we both ran into a new Nobody. I could not help but be suspicious of her, especially after the events with Nyxar. She seemed to know about the Nobodies before we met her, which she had learned from sentient Heartless. I will be wary of this for now.

I tested her both in combat and in decision making. She seemed to do well in both, giving me the exact answer I wanted. I can't say I'm comforted with this, but I am satisfied in her ability. She would make a good recruit to the Organization. Her name is Liana. That will soon be changed.

The initiation ceremony could have gone much better than it did. I first learned of Liana's history as to best give her a title and name, learning that she was from a world that was destroyed. She was a part of a religion of that world, part of the church. As I was having a discussion with her, Vexen decided to enter. I knew I should have handled this better, but the way he entered could have been improved upon. Of course, it was no different than his typical arrogance, but it as unnecessary.

Luxord entered as well and supplied a riddle, an idea that I might have to use in the future when doing a mental test. It would certainly propose more of a challenge to them. She answered it adequately, though she then proceeded to tell us that the Organization was chaotic. It indeed was and something I obviously will be working to correct. Unfortunately, after she answered this, Vexen debated with her about her answer, which of course Luxord added input toward. Though, she responded to Vexen quite... eloquently. It was a nice change, but perhaps unnecessary. Vexen brought it upon himself and deserved to hear every word of it, though I should not have encouraged it. She was named and given the title of the Druid Priestess. Aixfeur attempted to fight her due to her challenging Vexen, but Lexaeus stepped in.

Lexaeus... I apologize in advance for what I have done and what I will do. However, know that I do this for the Organization, not for just myself.
Complete

July 22, 2010, Base:
All plans came together for this one event, the Superior's death. It was quick and rather... anticlimactic. I had expected the Superior to be much stronger, but I supposed what has weakened us all has weakened him as well. Being in "sleep" has also not aided that I suppose. Still, I expected the fight to be much more difficult.

As he was fading, he said one thing that intrigued me. It was about coming back in another form-- perhaps not with all of his memories, but coming back. That only reinforces what Yen Sid mentioned that I should be aware of. Xehanort may return. That was a possibility.

Though, how can it be? I don't think I understand out that would even be possible... I suppose I will just have to wait and see. It is time for the Organization to reorganize itself and find out that its Superior has been disposed of.
Complete

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Indescribable Lore
The writings and documentations of Zexion, the Shadow-Walking Tactician.

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Chapter Five: Call to Action

July 22, 2010, Second Entry, Base:
I wish I could say that this meeting went well and the Organization was quickly put back together. Unfortunately, that is not the case. We began the meeting in chaos and had to wade through it through the entire meeting.

The only good thing that resulted was that everyone attended. However, two members, Demyx and Luxord, subsequently left the Organization because of our disposal of Xemnas. Saïx and I have lost trust within the Organization, though him not so much as myself. Lexaeus no longer trusts me after it was revealed that Axel was alive and what I had done to make sure of this. I can tell he no longer trusts me.

The Organization, after much debate, came to a final conclusion that Lexaeus shall be our new leader with a council set-up. I have a difficult time picturing Lexaeus as a leader, but I believe he can do a suitable job. He is the one that all members trust the most. I will support his leadership and do the best that I can to ensure that nothing negatively affects it. Mission sign-up sheet will be done after this brief entry. Though, I wonder if I should list Axel again...

I had best finish this quickly. Preparations need to be made for the battle with the Champion. I will need to prepare not only my strength, but my strategy as well. This should prove to be very intriguing.
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July 23, 2010, Radiant Garden:
Xehanort was not here. I wonder if I should be relieved yet. Will he turn up eventually, and I just cursed to keep going back to Radiant Garden? Perhaps, but hopefully not. This does nothing to quench the paranoia that Yen Sid has given me: I will only hope that Xehanort never returns. It would only create more problems.

Though... would he have his heart? Never mind. I cannot keep going on with this tangent. I'll only end up driving myself insane. Either way, I need to make myself useful to Radiant Garden in an attempt to work together. They need the location of the world. This sketch should suffice for them.

... I couldn't deliver the sketch until after a fight ensued. Raen, Lanying and Zack found me here, the foremost having met with the Champion. He contains a much more mature control over the darkness now. All three of them have improved since I last fought them. For this, I suppose I should be glad I did not win. If the Organization knew I had willingly fought against a Keyblade Master and attempted to kill them, I would lose any standing I have left. I did not show any sort of mercy this time and they managed to defeat me.

Though, I should note down an ability Lanying used that could be very useful in the fight against the Champion. She used an attack that nullified my darkness attack. If I can mimic that, then we can nullify the Champion's attacks more than once. I will have to include that into my strategy.

Raen, while having an odd sense of honor, told me more that I needed to know about the Champion. I will analyze this at some other point.

""Light can be kind, warm, and comforting. It can show you the way and drive away your fears. Everything has light, and it shines no matter where it is located and how little it is. Yet, beware, for it also can become harsh and searing, an intolerance that burns to the bone with hatred, and can blind you to the truth. Open your heart to those words and understand.

"The shadows, enfolding and enclosing, surrounding all. The hidden side of things, able to alter something's appearance in the dark shade. Rage, burning, yet within lies the center, the eye of the storm. It is the lovely night sky. It is the veil, protecting your sight from things to harsh to survive. It is the cool stillness that grasps those who are both arriving and leaving life. Open your heart to those words and understand. These are the two great forces known as light and darkness."



He also mentioned that the Champion saved him from those who were willing to control him. Unless others were trying to, I believe he is referring to me. That leaves me without a pawn for the moment, though I suppose I can work with him and his friends at this point. I do not see a point in remaining enemies.

Now, time to strategize. I cannot return to The World That Never Was yet. I need time to think alone and to heal from today's battle. I cannot have interference.
Complete

July 24, 2010, Neverland Clock Tower:
I've been sitting here since yesterday, attempting to draw out plans. I haven't sleep since two nights ago because of this attempt. I'm afraid that I can't understand half of the plans I've drawn out. I'm wondering if this was a pointless endeavor.

Xigbar, Alanix and Leon found me, unfortunately. Strategy was discussed to the point where we learned that this attempt was indeed futile. We cannot strategize against something we don't know completely about. Tomorrow, we're simply going to have to do our best.

Alanix asked me about the history of the Organization and Axel while we were there. She wanted to know why Axel was giving her a strange look. I also explained why Xemnas had to be brought down, which she seemed to understand. I wonder what she's going to do with that information now.

... The last bit of this entry is written after narrowly escaping the clock tower exploding. I now need to find a new place to escape to from the castle. Damn you Xigbar.
Complete

July 25, 2010, Keyblade Graveyard, Traverse Town:
The turnout for the large battle was as expected, though the events were not. The Champion left the battlefield almost as soon as he arrived, though I cannot understand why. The fighting continued for some time, and I found that the side of light had casualties: Kairi was killed. There was undoubtedly heartbreak from it, none of which I intend to see.

Most of the Organization left after the Champion did, which made Lexaeus leave as well. He told me that he needed time to think, thus leaving me to document the rest of the fight. Nothing of interest truly happened except for the one casualty. Fighting continued for some time, though I'm not about to guess at how long.

I then returned to Traverse Town only to find Larxene. Disgusting. I was hoping she would not come back as a Nobody, but alas she did. I left after seeing her. Axel might want to know she's alive.
Complete

July 27, 2010, Traverse Town:
Traverse Town is crossed off the list as a replacement for Neverland's Clock Tower, though at least it wasn't because of Larxene. I met an interesting woman here named Viola, the head of the Shield that Raen was a part of. She was definitely not pleased to hear that he hadn't returned to give a report to her and was able to give me some interesting information. The Shield is quite the mobilized unit, more organized than the Organization is or ever was. She also raised the idea of working together at some point, though I do not see it as possible. The Organization... needs to become an Organization first.
Complete

July 28, 2010, Beast's Castle:
The Champion was in this world, seemingly after the Princess of Heart. An odd woman took her away before that could happen, however. I was told to relay the message that the Champion would no longer be after the Keyblade Bearers, never going to appear again. He also told me to tell Alanix to reveal his secret and to prevent the Door of Darkness from being opened once it was unsealed.

Naturally, the members I recruit seem to be either traitors or useless. I can't say I'm too surprised, though I should have expected it sooner. At least Aixfeur shows some promise. If only she was not so keen on following only Vexen.
Complete

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Chapter Six: Futility

August 2, 2010, Radiant Garden:
Xehanort wasn't here again. I'm beginning to wonder if this search is futile. I'll still keep it going I suppose. Axel and Saïx appeared as well, the former having a follower. Quite the crazy woman, not one I wanted to linger around. Left as quickly as possible.
Complete

August 4, 2010, Base:
Lexaeus has permanently left the Organization, leaving the group defunct. Xaldin seemed intent on trying to lead it again-- if he wishes to, then he may. I doubt I will be returning. There's more to be done outside of the Organization, other ways to find our hearts again. Though, I can't honestly say I remember having mine that long...

Time to search other worlds and check their current states. And, of course, continue the search for Xehanort. Perhaps something will come up.
Complete

August 5, 2010, Caste of Dreams:
I will be aiding the cause of darkness for now, the force led by a man named Jericho. He almost single-handedly destroyed this world and, somehow, was able to make me enjoy it. It must have been some ability of his. There was no other way I could feel that amount of horrible joy.

I need to keep constant surveillance on what the side of darkness is doing. Their numbers seem to be growing, I suppose for decent reasons. However, I cannot let that Door to Darkness be opened. Once it's unsealed, I'll have to do everything in my power to stop it. For now, I will check in on Castle and continue a search for Xehanort. Emiline seems to have joined the forces of darkness alongside Aerith. It's... quite interesting. I wonder what I can do with that.
Complete

August 7, 2010, Twilight Town:
Castle's darkness has grown, but he was rejecting it. Must I always run into the ones that reject their darkness? Most likely a curse of some sort for being able to sense darkness. I forced him to accept it, in a ways at least. He seemed to dislike me for helping Jericho's cause. Naïve really. I left him be for now. He had best not derail my plans.
Complete

August 9, 2010, Notre Dame:
It seems I have gone straight back to square one. Jericho and some of the rest of his group have vanished, leaving only Emiline and the suit of armor that did away with Kairi. I met both off them here by chance, the latter throwing me at the former. I cannot really say I enjoyed that experience either.

Jericho's group has disbanded now that the leader has vanished. I do not care where the others wander off to, but I need to find something to do. I write this in Radiant Garden, which I have decided to use as a base for the time being. The only thing I can do at the moment is continue searching for Xehanort, no matter how pointless it seems, and research ways to retrieve my heart.
Complete

August 10, 2010, Radiant Garden (New Base):
Xehanort is still not here. What am I even doing?

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Lillian's Journal
A journal to write down random thoughts and things to remember.

Prologue: Lillian Owen
(Profile Page)

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June 10, 2010:
I haven't even been in Radiant Garden that long yet; maybe only two or three days. It's a nice world and the people seem all right so far. It's in the process of being built up again, which sort of reminds me of Libertas I guess; though, this world is a whole lot smaller than mine was. These Gummi Ships also don't have the aesthetics our ships had.

That's... not really what this journal entry is mainly about. I'm writing all of this stuff so I don't forget it and so I can look back on it if I need to. This day is going to be one that I'm going to look back on for a long time. Radiant Garden got attacked today by this mysterious figure, a really powerful guy he was too. He was trying to use the darkness to destroy the place, starting in the center of town. He was doing a pretty good job of it too... a lot of buildings got destroyed.

I fought with a lot of other people to try and take this guy down, a whole group of people who seemed to know each other. It didn't even feel like it worked. The guy just blocked everything and gave us a bunch of darkness straight back at us. It was the first fight in a long time that I didn't know for sure if we would win or not. It turns out that we didn't. The guy just left, even though he could have probably destroyed the place without having to use a lot of effort.

One of the last things he mentioned was the most frightening part. He told us how he tainted all of our hearts with darkness from his attacks. It will find its way into our everyday lives somehow, the darkness strengthening in our hearts. It was... I don't know how to describe it. What's so bad about the light anyway that he had to attack all of us? The darkness is what corrupts worlds and destroys them, not the light.

I can't let all of this weigh me down. I may have lost today... and my heart got tainted with darkness. That means that every person I talk to will probably get tainted too, or something. Even with all of that, I can't let that stop me. I have to keep going forward and fight for what I think is right.
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June 12, 2010:
It's only been a couple of days since Radiant Garden got attacked. I've been doing my best to help out the Restoration Committee try and rebuild the place and make things better. Everyone's just trying to rebuild the buildings that the darkness just so easily tore apart; it's sort of a scary thought when you think about it.

I met these two people after I was finished working, one really short guy and a really tall girl. The guy, whose name turned out to be Castle, was in that big fight with me. I sort of remember him. He was just another outsider of this world like me trying to fight. I have got to say something though: he is really short. I mean, I've met short guys before, but he just takes the cake as the shortest one I've met. I swear he was looking at me too when he was doing this pose thing. I don't think I'll ever get why.

The girl's name was Emi and she was the only one out of us all that was from Radiant Garden. She told us that the castle that we were looking at, the one in the distance, was haunted by something. She seemed sort of sketchy, though I think all of us were on some level. I wasn't exactly telling them all of the details about what I knew. Though, we did make one hell of a team when we fought off the Heartless together. Seriously though, why do they have to ruin everything?

It was after that when we went to get a bite to eat with the munny we got from the Heartless; kind of a nice end to a day I guess.
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June 18, 2010:
I took a break from doing work in Radiant Garden and flew out to see some other worlds-- those Moogles are quite the demanding little creatures. I got to this place called Twilight Town, which is actually a nice world when you look at it. It's sort of quaint and it's got this sunset that just lasts forever. I would think that something like that would just get boring, but whatever.

I ended up at this clock tower and went to the top of it after an ice cream stick thing fell next to me. There was this guy named Elrick up there, who seemed like a pretty good guy with some serious skills; he climbed up the tower for goodness' sake. I think I would have had a hell of a time doing that. But anyway, that's not really important I guess. We left the clock tower, not really wanting to watch the eternal sunset, and talked. Neither of us gave any information away about where we were really from except the mention of his sister; I don't think I want to piss her off... or Elrick either.

I told him about the attack on Radiant Garden, but didn't go into detail about that either. It wasn't until after that when we got attacked by these Silver Heartless Things... except they weren't really Heartless, or at least they didn't seem like it. We attacked them and this OTHER thing comes and helps us. It was giving me the creeps, whatever it was; it was like some sentient Heartless. It helped us defeat the silver creatures and introduced itself as Humor. I didn't like being around it too much and I don't think Elrick did either. We ditched it in Twilight Town and went to our ships to get the heck out of here... though he caused property damage. Yeah, I don't think the people here will want us back anytime soon.
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June 25, 2010:
There... is something on my ship. I can't find it, but I know something is on my ship. I can just feel it. Something is on my ship and it is watching me. It is getting kind of creepy. I was flying my ship through the galaxy and the presence didn't leave at all. Whatever the hell snuck onto my ship had better be ready for when I deal with it; I don't take kindly to stalkers.

I sort of crash-landed my ship into this desert world with Elrick landing behind me. I guess it's what happens when I'm not paying attention... and speeding. I have this thing for speed. The stalker on my ship didn't help either since I kept looking over my shoulder, but I'm not even going to get into that. I'm just going to get off my ship so I don't feel like I'm being watched every freaking second.

I found out today that Elrick and heat don't get along, which was sort of funny. It was kind of awkward with him just taking off his shirt and stuff right in front of me, but I guess I should be used to it by now after being in the military. After he did that, this pirate guy came over. He was an arrogant prick, which was probably nicer than what I told him. He had the nerve to call me a bad pilot and just say "you should go take care of it". I don't need to be told crap like that; I know what to do and what not to do with a ship, thanks. He didn't even tell me who he was either when I asked and he tried to order Elrick and I around. Sorry dude, this isn't the military; if you want to order someone around, you picked the wrong person to do that with.

So after we met Mr. Arrogant Prick, we met this mouse... who was a King. I felt like such an idiot after calling that guy out and mouthing off to him in front of this guy, whose name was Mickey. He seemed rather nice too and went into town with Elrick and I. That guy, who I figured out was named Ain, brought us some water as we just sat and chatted about the light and darkness and stuff; yeah, a conversation I wasn't too thrilled with. Mickey already knew about the attack on Radiant Garden and we talked about how the light was getting too powerful. I'm still confused though. What can the light really do? As far as I know, it doesn't have that corrupting power that darkness has. I'm just... really lost.

After that was all said and done, I went back to the two ships and looked at the damage. Falcon didn't suffer too much and only had a couple dents in it. I really need to paint it again too; it's been ages since I did that last. I went back into the ship and it still felt like something was in there. I swear that something is hiding out on my ship. I don't know why, but I'm not going to question it. I'm not about to fly on it either until I know what's there. I connected my ship to Elrick's for now; wherever we go next, I can fix up my ship and figure out whatever the hell is on there. He didn't seem to mind too much, but I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm a weirdo or something now. Great...
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July 9, 2010:
It's been a while since I've written something. I've just been hanging out in Elrick's ship while flying around. He landed in this jungle place a while ago, though he didn't stay long there and flew off to some other world. It's sort of nice staying in his ship without having to worry about something watching you change or whatever, but I have to say this: looking at his walls is boring. My ship's not much better, but it's still boring. I need to get off my lazy ass and do something.

Elrick landed on this sunny world and went off to do something. I followed him and found him training with this anorexic red head guy. I can't say I have much of an opinion of that guy, but the thing that was also there was definitely not something I wanted to run into. It was another. Freaking. Talking. HEARTLESS. Why are all of these talking Heartless and why do I always seem to run into them with Elrick? That's probably a sign of something... I don't know.

Well either way, we did some training and Elrick fought with the red-head and I was put with the Heartless thing. I definitely didn't treat this like training once I got warmed up though; I wanted to kill this thing. Unfortunately, it was too fast and got too close and hit my wrists to disarm me. Stupid thing also mirrored my laser move. After I lost to it, Elrick and I left. I went back to my own ship so it didn't look like I was taking advantage of his hospitality. Besides, that thing might be off my ship by now.

... OR NOT. DAMMIT.
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July 16, 2010:
I really didn't want to, but I needed to land in Radiant Garden again. My ship was falling apart and I really needed to get it fixed. Elrick stayed in his ship while I went and found someone to help me out. Thankfully, I found this guy named Clive that decided to help me really quickly. Really quiet guy too.

And a former assassin. Awesome. At least he's not a talking Heartless thing.

I really need to learn to shut up by the way. Really badly. I got on this guy's nerves while he was helping me out, so much so that he got on my case while we were painting the ship. Though, it really put me in my place and it was needed. I wasn't acting like the soldier I should be, instead acting like this little scaredy-cat that cowered whenever I got near the inside of my ship. That's not something I should be scared of. And I shouldn't be scared of Clive either just because of who he is. Or was rather. I think he's changed a lot if he's helping out Radiant Garden. It's a really nice thing.

When we finished up and Falcon looked as good as new, we both parted ways. Though, when I was coming back into town, he came up to me and gave me his dagger. This dagger had been what he used to kill many people, but I shouldn't think of it as having blood on it. The blood was on his hands and he wasn't going to use it anymore. I accepted it and took it with me. I fully intend on learning how to fight with it. It was about time I learned to use something other than my guns.

All in all, a good day. I will get that shadow thing hiding on my ship now. I'm not going to be scared of it looking over my shoulder anymore. You reading this shadow thing? If you are, it'll be the last thing you see. I'm onto you.
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July 17, 2010:
I can't really say much happened today. We made it back to Traverse Town and decided just to catch a quick break. Elrick and I went to the local bar to relax, but ended up finding Castle and Emi. I didn't think they'd leave Radiant Garden, but I guess I was wrong.

Either way, they acted just as shifty as they did before, especially Emi. Apparently, it was her birthday, so I guess I could understand. We all ordered drinks and the like to celebrate, though there was definitely not any celebration happening. Emi and Elrick got drunk while Castle and I just talked a little bit. The only fun part was our exit, which was wheeling Elrick out by means of a cart. I don't even care how many weird looks we got. It was fun. Though, now I probably can't go back to this world either... we've already got two worlds we can't go to so far. I wonder how many more there'll be by the end of this.
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July 23, 2010:
Grr, I have a hangover. And it sucks. It's not as bad as ones I've had before, but it still sucks. Since I still remember some stuff, I didn't get that hammered either, which also sucks; that means nothing interesting happened. It was just Elrick, Redhead and me at this beach world all just drinking. Somehow, and I don't really remember how, fancy outfits got involved. Axel's was gross. Why the hell did I even pick that out? It just looked like roadkill without him wearing it. And Elrick looked even weirder than normal. I just looked like a hooker.

Speaking of which, that's what I woke up in. Elrick refused to put me down until we got to my ship and left me in this damn outfit. He can be such an ass. I bet he enjoyed me wearing that outfit and the torture I had in it. I fricking hate heels. And skirts. And froo-froo things. I know he enjoyed carrying me too since he got a view and left me with nothing. Ass.

I should probably stop writing and sleep. Then I can think him for carrying me back to my ship and not just leaving me at this beach. Next stop... somewhere where there's action. And no need of defeating the Awkward Zone.
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July 25, 2010:
First things first, I have to ask this question after I finally made it back to my ship: How. The hell. Does it Snow. In a DESERT?! This place was a wasteland and then snow just came out of nowhere. Fricking. Snow. There was wind too, but that's actually normal. Snow + desert doesn't even make any sense.

Well, there might be an explanation I suppose. After I could see and had trudged a bit in the snow, I saw the Champion. I was really hoping I'd never see him again, not after what happened in Radiant Garden. I was really hoping it would be a one-time thing and that I could just ignore the darkness even longer. Why was he here? What did he want with all of us? He's already tainted us. Did he just want a second shot to do so?

I knew I probably should have stayed and fought for the light, stayed and fought the Champion instead of running away. But I didn't and ran away like a coward. By the time I decided to stop being a coward, the Champion was gone and I found out Mickey was killed as well as someone else. I didn't even know Mickey that well, but picturing him dying... not something I really wanted to do. And the Champion did it. No one else would have done that to someone as good as him-- no one else would have been able to at least. That was why so many people were there, to avenge him. But he left too soon.

Something else odd happened while I was there at the Graveyard. When I was doing my usual Strong Shot, my energy shots were black and... dark. Yeah, so original with my word choice, but that's what it was. Was that... because I was tainted or something? My shots turned dark? I really thought that this whole tainted business would just go away, that it was a farce. It's obviously not though, which means that someday, I'll have to face the darkness. Damn.

And crap, Elrick figured out I've been reading his journal and told me to stop in his last entry. Well I'm sorry Mr. I Like to Walk Around in My Underwear, I guess I won't anymore. I just won't leave any traces next time. And so you don't read mine, I'll put it in my underwear drawer. Well, that probably won't stop you. You're probably reading this right now aren't you? Of course you are. Don't mess up my drawer too much, got it?

You're going to have to tell me what Orpheus is sometime. Also, why the freaking hell did you not tell me you met the Champion in the Deep Jungle? That was sort of important. So not getting you anymore free drinks from now on.

July 27, 2010:
I'm not going to be writing for a little while, for a couple of days. Elrick and I are pairing up with Lanying and Raen to go back to... I can't spell his homeworld, but I think this is how it's done: Yeridisee. No that doesn't look right. Whatever. Either way, all four of us are going to that hellhole to help him out and hopefully get out of there quickly. He said he was going to give us instructions for how we need to act once we get there.

It's probably a good thing he gave us instructions. When he described his home, it sounded pretty much like hell. The military group there, which is called Orpheus, started to use the darkness for their gain and obtained control over the world. Elrick wanted nothing to do with that and left. I would've done the same thing to be honest.

Now he's going back to get something and we're going to make sure he's protected. Also, I can tell that traveling with these two are going to be... interesting. Lanying's very nice, though quite nasty when she wants to be; Keyblade Wielder, so she has to be strong. Raen's nice too, and was the only one at that table in the coffee place that didn't end up getting embarrassed-- lucky bastard. Never. Wearing. Maid Outfit. Again.

I'll write when I get back. Hopefully that's soon. I'm determined to get everyone out of there alive, no matter what. And if I don't get to write again because I did something stupid and/or got myself killed, then I can at least say I tried my best.
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July 29 and July 30, 2010:
Well, I'm writing in this journal again. I'm alive and so is Elrick and Raen. Lanying is too, and she's safe on her homeworld. Right now, I can't say how thankful I am I can write all that with truth.

A lot of shit went down. The minute we got there, we were fighting off Orpheus. They had tamed Heartless and were even using the Wyverns to ride on! It was... just wow. Everyone managed to get to the bridge okay, especially thanks to Lanying's kick-ass dragon (Note: don't piss her off). Then we got to the bridge where more shit went down. While we fought off more of Orpheus's soldiers, the bridge ended up getting blown up in the process. And Elrick had to send Lanying home after she got hit. I wish he didn't have to, but I guess it had to be done.

We got past the bridge and found that this whole thing had been a trap for Elrick. One of the main guys of Orpheus was sitting there waiting for us, as were a bunch of other soldiers. We tried fighting against them, but after we found out that the soldiers were pretty much humanoid Heartless and we were greatly outnumbered, we were forced to run. Well, Raen and I. Elrick stayed behind and he got captured.

Raen and I found out the next day what was planned. After going through town on our way to find a place to get cleaned up, we were told that he was going to be publicly executed. Public execution. Still hard to write that down because it really almost happened. I just... yeah, this is where my mind kind of goes blank. I don't really remember how much of how I reacted other than being really, really pissed and really, really torn up. How the hell could they do this? How was this even... and why did it have to be public of all things?!

I couldn't lose my partner that easily though. Raen and I both put on disguises and he claimed he looked like a bad-ass when he looked sort of goofy and went to find where he was being executed. During all that, I inherited Elrick's crazy and heard voices in my head was chosen for the Keyblade. Seriously. I'm not joking. Out of what felt like nowhere, I was chosen to wield this weapon. It's wonderful to look at even though I have no idea how to use it. I'm still contemplating names-- sort of looks like a falcon though, which is just so fitting...

Anyway, we found where he was being executed. In front of a cathedral. And it was with a guillotine because they had to make this dramatic and bloody and UGH guillotines scare the shit out of me. I seriously thought we were all going to die right then and there. After both Raen and I just started shooting, I thought we were going to get overwhelmed by soldiers and get killed right with Elrick. But no, that son of a bitch got out from the guillotine and kicked ass with us. Hell lot of relief that was.

We got out of there before the guy in charge of Orpheus blew us up with darkness, Elrick bringing us over to Orpheus's headquarters. We were going to get a ship and get the hell out of here. Unfortunately, Ellie's Elrick's sister and two others were there to stop us. I gave Raen my other gun to fight with since he didn't have a weapon (he explained to me that the sword made for him by The Shield enhances his ice abilities, but he had to leave that on the ship back home).

It probably wasn't one of my best ideas though since I had barely any idea what I was doing. The one I was fighting was over a foot taller than me and his sword was just as long. I used the Keyblade with him for some time, not really knowing what I was doing. It was real easy for him to fight with me and he got a bunch of hits and cuts-- the one on my stomach still hurts like hell. Oh yeah, speaking of hell, he had a fire demon helping him. A fricking large fire demon. That was fun, getting a humongous fireball to the back. I haven't looked at how bad my back is yet. It just hurts. A lot.

I finished that fight though and Raen finished his. And... Elrick finished his against his sister. She had her reasons for bringing him back here, ones of which I'm not sure I have all straightened out yet. I'm not going to ask Elrick about it though since he... yeah I'm not going to finish that train of thought. The important thing is that we all got out of there alive, barely. And even though it was hell here in Eurydice, I'm really thankful we went with him. I really don't know what I would have done if I had had to sit and wait for him to never come back in Traverse Town-- I really don't.

I think that's everything though. For now, I'm going to keep flying and hopefully find some place safe and relaxing to land. We need a vacation. And Elrick, you better not be reading this. Because I put this in the same place I did last time and you probably messed it up. Again.

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