Post by Administrator on Apr 7, 2011 19:11:25 GMT -5
You are about to hear something few have ever heard before in their lives from me: I was wrong. Very much so. I should have filled Cait in on the Plot Arc information, but I was so excited about it, I just...never did. That's no excuse, however. I was in the wrong, and I admit it. And I'm sorry.
But I did not sit down to write this to apologize to Cait, only. I sat down to write this to apologize to each individual person that I'm detrimented by my actions over the past several months.
Firstly, Aly. I am so sorry I never asked for your input. I'm sorry that I didn't approach you before doing what I was doing, and that I shoved so much of the busy work off on you. In fact, I did that to all of you. And for that, I am sincerely sorry.
On a lighter note, I also wanted to apologize to you, Aly, for not RPing with you more. We should fix that soon.
Second person: Cait. As I said, I'm sorry I didn't fill you in on what was happening. I screwed up. Big time. I would love to get the opportunity to fix that and work with you collaboratively on setting up the rest of the Plot Arc. I've already said the rest of it, and if I've forgotten part of my apology, I blame short term memory.
Thirdly, Slash. I am really sorry I got angry at you last night. And I did get a little angry today, at least. But I had no right to expect things out of Jericho that he wasn't going to give. I really did just run in there without thinking about who it would affect. I mean, I know it was an open thread, but you had plans, probably, and I screwed them up big time. I understand if you hate me for bringing the Esper in there afterwards; it was just too great of an opportunity to pass up. To kickstart the plot like that? But I really should have thought ahead, and for that, I'm sorry.
Finally, Aerith. I am really, really, really sorry. I didn't THINK. I really should have realized that no means no, and saying that you should have been more forceful is just an excuse, because you aren't forceful and I know that. I really screwed up here, because I consider you guys all like family to me, but I went out and stamped on your ideas and plans like they were nothing, even after I was told not to.
Both Slash and Aerith, I'm not begging for forgiveness. I won't sit here and cry and ask you to please--or even pretty please--forgive me. That would just demean you and me both. I just want to let you know that, as you know, I screwed up big time, and I know that, and you know that, and I just hope that we can move past it, somehow.
And to everyone it affected, I'm sorry about last night. I shouldn't have thrown Lysander in the thread in the first place, but, secondly, I shouldn't have tried to have him dodge all of those attacks. And then arguing the point with all of you...that was just horrible and stupid of me. And the earthquake thing didn't really matter, I just wanted to blow something out of proportion, which was stupid, selfish, and arrogant of me.
In short, I've been acting like my father and not realizing it. I want to make it up to all of you and try to do my best to make Shades live up to its potential, but I need all of your help to make this happen. Will you, people I have wronged, help me to try and right my wrongs, and try to make this site as great as it should be?
But I did not sit down to write this to apologize to Cait, only. I sat down to write this to apologize to each individual person that I'm detrimented by my actions over the past several months.
Firstly, Aly. I am so sorry I never asked for your input. I'm sorry that I didn't approach you before doing what I was doing, and that I shoved so much of the busy work off on you. In fact, I did that to all of you. And for that, I am sincerely sorry.
On a lighter note, I also wanted to apologize to you, Aly, for not RPing with you more. We should fix that soon.
Second person: Cait. As I said, I'm sorry I didn't fill you in on what was happening. I screwed up. Big time. I would love to get the opportunity to fix that and work with you collaboratively on setting up the rest of the Plot Arc. I've already said the rest of it, and if I've forgotten part of my apology, I blame short term memory.
Thirdly, Slash. I am really sorry I got angry at you last night. And I did get a little angry today, at least. But I had no right to expect things out of Jericho that he wasn't going to give. I really did just run in there without thinking about who it would affect. I mean, I know it was an open thread, but you had plans, probably, and I screwed them up big time. I understand if you hate me for bringing the Esper in there afterwards; it was just too great of an opportunity to pass up. To kickstart the plot like that? But I really should have thought ahead, and for that, I'm sorry.
Finally, Aerith. I am really, really, really sorry. I didn't THINK. I really should have realized that no means no, and saying that you should have been more forceful is just an excuse, because you aren't forceful and I know that. I really screwed up here, because I consider you guys all like family to me, but I went out and stamped on your ideas and plans like they were nothing, even after I was told not to.
Both Slash and Aerith, I'm not begging for forgiveness. I won't sit here and cry and ask you to please--or even pretty please--forgive me. That would just demean you and me both. I just want to let you know that, as you know, I screwed up big time, and I know that, and you know that, and I just hope that we can move past it, somehow.
And to everyone it affected, I'm sorry about last night. I shouldn't have thrown Lysander in the thread in the first place, but, secondly, I shouldn't have tried to have him dodge all of those attacks. And then arguing the point with all of you...that was just horrible and stupid of me. And the earthquake thing didn't really matter, I just wanted to blow something out of proportion, which was stupid, selfish, and arrogant of me.
In short, I've been acting like my father and not realizing it. I want to make it up to all of you and try to do my best to make Shades live up to its potential, but I need all of your help to make this happen. Will you, people I have wronged, help me to try and right my wrongs, and try to make this site as great as it should be?